Ugggggh

 ”Love is to a woman what war is to a man: The most deadly thing they’ll do.”

This is how I am feeling right now…   It’s been ONLY  two days since the beau left and I feel like I’m getting farther away from the beau for some reason. As if I’m closing down my emotions for him and I don’t want to speak to him anymore! 

LMAO IS THIS A JOKE? 

I literally answered him almost two weeks after he saw me and this is what he answers me? LMAO LIKE WHY?  😂😂😂

LMAO IS THIS A JOKE?

I literally answered him almost two weeks after he saw me and this is what he answers me? LMAO LIKE WHY? 😂😂😂

Aw

My mama gave me a peep talk about the beau to make me feel better since I was crying yesterday cause I missed him and she hugged me then kissed me! 

She made total sense about saying goodbye cause it isn’t the end of the world and it gives me the opportunities to concentrate on myself for now  and to better my future!  As if I didn’t know but I needed to be reminded about it again..

Ahhh mothers, they are amazing!!!

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:(

He left and my room feels so empty which makes it worst since I feel like there’s a void happening.  So now I’m in the living room until I’m ready to go back in… *sigh*

I was literally crying as soon as he hugged me goodbye. :(    but he said I’ll see you soon soooooooooo that made me feel better HOWEVER it doesn’t change the fact that we’ve gotten so closer now and I missed him as soon as he got in the taxi (holding my tears as I write this).  

THIS SHIT STINKS! 

*sniff sniff*

Booo

He missed his flight!!! We got the time wrong so instead his leaving on Sunday. Pretty bummed out though cause I know he was looking forward on going back home and he had to pay extra for a whole ticket which he’s leaving from another city!

During the whole way to the airport, I was holding my tears and a few drops fell which I was hiding it from the beau cause I couldn’t imagine saying goodbye and I even wrote him a note for him to read before he board and then that happened… I felt horrible cause no one wants to miss their flights but in a way after on our way back I felt a bit warm about it. Does that make me selfish a bit? Probably but either way, I get to spend more time with one of my favorite persons on earth!

Maybe home is nothing but two arms holding you tight when you’re at your worst.
:(

He’s leaving tomorrow 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I can’t think of it without wanting to cry!! 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

Happpyyyyy Monday!!!!! 😊😊

Happpyyyyy Monday!!!!! 😊😊

AWKWARD

Yesterday I had an awkward run in the transit with the beau and Mr.Smith…Which I’ve been ignoring his messages for the past weeks. LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!It was honestly so awkward just because I was high and on top I was tipsy the whole 2 minutes conversation which felt like 20 hours.  I didn’t even bother present themselves to each other until Mr.Smith was like oh my name is…… shaking hands. I WAS LIKE O.O …Then I was saved by the conducter who asked everyone that was standing up to move backwards. I WAS LIKE HALLLELLUJAHHH!!!!!

And the beau was laughing the whole fucking time!  I never thought that this day would ever happened but just the way it did..omg. so priceless! 

Then later on the evening, I received a text that said ” Nice running into you (My name), hope you guys have a great time!” I DIED OF LAUGHTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I called my bestie and she was dying over the situation then said I should answer in two weeks and say “It was nice running into you too. Thank you, I had a great time. Hope all is well” I rollleeddd when I heard her say that. Knowing him he wishes the opposite and the fact that he never thought that I would get over him? But I did and he’s witnessing it? L-OH-FUCKING-L!!!  Ahhhhhh sweet karma!!!

Anyway, the beau leaving in four days booo :( :( 

Gonna enjoy the last weekend he’s here, tonight we’re going to my mom’s bestfriend for dinner then the rest of the weekend go with the mood.

Hope yall had a great week and a great weekend!